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Reintegration:
Healing the Self, Healing the Earth
by Jesse Wolf Hardin
Reserve, NM
There is no division between where we live and what we are.
Scott Russell Sanders
The Sweet Medicine Sanctuary is a restored riparian wilderness, a river
ecosystem made healthy again through the reintroduction of cottonwoods
and willows, cattail and clump grass. Ringtail cats cavort next to splashing
muskrats, and fish make love under an expanse of heron wings. Its
been twenty years since I first started chasing cattle off the sanctuary
proper, eight years since it's been legally fenced, five since the first
interns began aiding its healing and celebration, and two since litigation
has made it possible for the entire canyon to begin to rewild. With each
new season, increasing numbers of plants have made their way back home
here, and every Spring comes the sound of yet another bird species Ive
never heard. With every reintroduction the land becomes more of what it
once was and in this way, more itself.
Like this land, I have lost parts of myself, only to regain them through
practice and prayer, personal insistence and the passage of time. Things
such as the willingness to laugh and the ability to cry. The honest depths
of agony and far extremes of joy. My inner animal and the reason for being.
The inclination to play and the patience to stay. Its a good thing,
because the longer Im here, the better able I am to hear the will
and whisperings of the Earth and the more myself I am.
Of course, the walk downriver hasnt always been easy. Although some
seasons Ive leapt about, moving rocks for soil berms as if work
had no weight, other months sore joints have made it difficult to plant
a single seed. But truth be known, in either case, Ive never really
been healthier: knowing who I really am, what I most need to be doing,
and where I certainly belong.
Indeed, what is it to be healthy but to be whole: a balanced unity of
gifts and needs, heart and mind, vision and action. Gaia (our Earth
Mother/Nature) teaches that good health isnt the absence of trauma
or pain, but rather, the most complete embodiment of our authentic selves.
The depth of sensation, emotion and experience. The fullness of expression
and response. The fulfillment of our passions and our purpose, our destiny
and our dreams. Its how we live, not how long. Wellness
means living well: consciously and compassionately, artfully
and purposefully.
It isnt disease that makes us unwhole, because pain makes us more
aware of our bodies and feelings and the way our lifestyles and our immediate
environments are affecting us. Suffering tempers our skills, tests our
resolve, and strengthens our will. Debility teaches us humility, and infirmity
counsels patience. The loss of one sensory organ leads to a heightening
of the others. At its worst, a deadly virus does nothing but return us
to the earth we arose from, extend from, and belong to. We are made unwhole
not by death, but the failure to fully live by that which dilutes
our focus, weakens our intention, or dishonors our spirit. That which
makes us doubt our instincts and intuition, significance or value. We
are made unwhole by the suppression of our feelings and the repression
of our needs by the subjugation of our animal beings.
We have to give up certain aspects and components of our selves in order
to fit into societys mold. It is the loss or neglect of these parts
that contributes to our greatest dis-ease: Our imagined separation from
the rest of the living world. And with their re-membering and reclamation,
we take the first of many steps towards the necessary cure.
Likewise, the Earth isnt made any less or any less healthy by the
eroding of mountain rock into fertile valley soil, or the death of a cottontail
in the jaws of a fox. Not even by the shredding of forests by an erupting
volcano, which grow back relatively quickly. Even the natural extinction
of species is only a recycling of the parts into the whole, each pruning
back resulting in a new burst of growth, an opportunity for new color
and form. To the degree that it is sickened, it is not because of the
annihilation of individual life forms so much as the overall reduction
of biological, cultural and topographical diversity. We sicken
the earth by the extincting of species for no reasons other than obliviousness
and greed and the appropriation of habitat so theres little place
left for the wildlife to spring back.
The monocultures of agribusiness and the genetic manipulation of life
are wounding the earth. And its not just through the killing off
of native songbirds, but the hundreds of indigenous languages being lost
to neglect as well. By our failing to notice Gaias every miracle
and gift, every hint of wind, the opening of a sidewalk blossom, the dance
of a floating leaf, we separate ourselves. And through our forgetting
to give thanks. We make the world sick with our neglect of self and planet,
the dishonoring of Spirit, and the conceptual and physical dismembering
of that which was one.
We say the integrity of a structure is compromised if any portion
is degraded or removed. It is the same with a person or an ecosystem.
The health of people or places increases with the diversity and magnitude
of their expression. Thus any reduction in diversity impinges on the integrity
of the whole. The role of the social and eco-activist becomes one not
only of resistance but of restoration and re-immersion.
It all starts with us literally coming to our senses. Our creature
senses are organs of reintegration, and when opened and heightened they
bring the world were integral to even closer. It is taste that can
stir our gratitude, sight that can awaken awe, touch that can mend the
imagined separation between body and soul, self and place. We feel through
touch, and touch heals. Our sensory and emotional contact inspires the
protection, nourishment and celebration of that with which weve
engaged. It can result in forests defended, trees replanted, and native
grasses gently stroked and sung to!
Our future personal, social and ecological health may hinge on our personal
integrity and the integrity of the natural world that we love. Like the
extirpated Mexican Gray Wolf or the defamed spotted owl, we seek only
to be and belong. For us, to be reintegrated is to be accepted back within
the identity of the Gaian whole, to exist and act in harmony with tribal
human community and the community of nature. Belonging is more than feeling
settled, welcome, or even committed. Its the state of being at one
with the needs, expression and spirit of the living breathing Earth.
By learning to wholly serve, we intentionally rejoin the whole. And it
is through this bringing back together of disparate and damaged parts
of self and of Earth that we never have to feel apart again.
Jesse Wolf Hardin is a deep ecologist, contemporary spiritual teacher,
and author of Kindred Spirits: Sacred Earth Wisdom (Swan Raven
Pub., 800-366-0264). To arrange for a presentation, for information, wilderness
retreats and resident internships contact: Scot Deily, The Earthen Spirituality
Project, Box 516, Reserve, NM 87830, or www.concentric.net/~earthway
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